For past 10+ days am sure you can't see me on my usual fb or able to reach me right ? lol It is because i went to Sabah for an intensive meditation camp ! and It is briliantly awesome !
The inspiration to go to such intensive is that, i heard one senior lightworker that i respect very much once told me: you know Victor, the work that you are doing, you should take a at least 10days kind of intensive retreat just to re-group and re-formulate yourself. Of coz, i didn't listen to it for i think she just think too much, not untill i myself experience it first hand that got me a glimpse of joyousness in such intensive retreat !
So here i am, in Sabah Kota Kinabalu, up high in one of the hills full of natures trees, crickets harmonics, bees, chicken choir , all kind of beautiful morph , beatles and butterflies etc. Bathing myself in an increadible sunshine and sun set, am entering into a 10 days intensive meditation camp.....
The first 2 days, was HORRIBLE n Terrible ! I can't seems to stop my mind from thinking my daily routine material life ! Mind just seems don't cooperate with me....i want to concerntrate n enjoy the full force of meditation but it just playing tricks on me! This makes me wonder, what the hell am i doing here?! If i can't meditate properly, this is a total waste of my time etc!
Little did i know on the 3rd day, such conflicts stops and all of sudden, i was ABLE to sit properly and meditate ! I then realize that HOW much that i got engaged myself into the mundane that lost touch with my own inner centre (giving me as a regular meditator myself daily! i still can;t sit properly for first two days!)
Everyday, wokeup at 430am, struggling to wakeup, struggling to sit and meditate on 5am bcoz except the in between breaks for toilets and meals, the rest are fully devoted to meditating, but luckily, each day there are activities that helps us break free inner limits as well as philosophy classes that makes things clearer to me! and each day, it brought me deeper and deeper, clearer and clearer on my goal, what i want and don;t want, reviewing my life as it is and refocus my life as i flow into the infinite expansion.
Besides meditation, theres game to break ones limits, particularly i quite like the game with a title of - How to get the opposite person to your place. Goodness i was the one being forcefully GRABBED by my partner into her place ! SHit ! luckily the mentor at the end said- "U see, many times, when we want to get something or make ppl to understand us, we forcefully GRAB them and force them to ourselves...but instead, we forgot that we can quite easily just ask others to come to your place ! That simple you know ?" Inside me - "Yes ! hahaha thats right ! it reminds me of, so many times in my life, some ppl just want to forcefully or manipulatively GRAB things away from me, and i was the one who got the shit due to slow respond...eventhough i not fine with it, but in the end, i trust, i trust that at the end of the day, i not the one to loose, bcoz this is not about loosing or winning, it is about be authentic and true to self that makes you succeed....and i succeeded many times ! Good n tough lesson to learn huh !
As days goes by, i become more and more intune within my centre, more and more clear on what i want to do and how to do it. During the camp, everything seems to slow down, mind chatters goes off....i don't even know how many days am i in, is it wed or friday? I don't even have contact to outside world for many days....all there is is me being in the nature...i don;t even try to connect to the angels or faeries....no such thing...
During the camp, we being brought to a beautiful waterfalls to connect to the nature ! OMg this got me so excited! The cool, rushing and blisfull waterfalls touching the skin and brought up my being....all of sudden, i felt my depletion of water elements in my body being FILLED up! What a power from the nature hey !
And the camp bring into a close, omg, i felt i am being tune up 100% in my meditation, i am much clearer on what meditation REALLY is and what it doess and how i can do it better ! Nothing better than getting yourself and your practice clearer and clearer! PLus, i guess i am triple more clear on whats my path is and how am i going to take myself from here to there! Wish me luck !
So what next after the camp ? PARTY time ! hahaha, I went to visit nearby Island, and totally enjoy the waters from the seas.....when in the boat, i try to connect to the poseidon, the elements of seas and the guardian of it......though i got some quite interesting information, but then a lovely angelic voices came through and said - you know beloved friends, just enjoy your being, don't try to access something due to curiousity, information will open to you when you are ready. Just be and enjoy ! OK ! I stop it and just enjoy ! hahahhaa
throw myself into the vast turquoise sea, be with the corals and fishes....while snorkeling, all of sudden i got a fear of the water deep into the sea...i know, the atlantean traumas and the gifts of marine healing is yelling at me...but like the angels said, i stop focusing on it, rather i focus on Joy...for what i trust if i really have to deal with this chapter, it will come effortlessly...i throw away the idea of fear in the snokerling and enjoying the rest of my time !
AT the End of the entire trip? I would say it is 200% batteries being charged up for me ! Both from the Great Mountain , the waterfalls coming down from the mountain as well as the water from the seas....sounds like the Water element in me being filled up! Oh yea, what more to say, the Dragon connection in KK rings a bell now, looking fwd to explore different dimensions , oh well the dragon stories is different thing for other time.
Will i go back again nxt year? mostly i will. So will c ;-)
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